God doesnt want me to be skinny.

He wants me to be His.He wants me to love him more than anything else on earth (even girl scout cookies).He wants my attention.He wants me to love what he has given me (even my generous hind parts).He wants me to care for what he has given me.He wants me to trust Him.He wants me to know the freedom that is in Christ.(even freedom from food-guilt)(even freedom from what the scale says)(even freedom from low self-esteem)He wants me to know that He made me for more.(even more than feeling like a prisoner in my own body)(even more than trying to be skinny)My weight loss journey is not about being skinny. It is not about how I look. It is not about a number on a scale or on my clothing tag or on the weights I lift or even on a BMI calculator.It is about who I am.It is about being disciplined. It is about the search for true satisfaction (and realizing that it’s not at the bottom of the brownie pan). It is about learning what’s a need and what’s a want. It is about leaning into these heart struggles, these soul struggles and getting to the root of them.If I get to my goal weight and am still carrying around the same extra spiritual baggage, then I’m doing it wrong. Because let’s face it: if I’m not filled with the joy God has given me now, today, I will not be filled with that joy just because my pants are two sizes smaller.God doesn’t want me to be skinny. He wants me to be His.:: :: :: :: :: ::My Journey to Health:April 6, 2012: 161lbsMarch 31, 2012: 163lbsFebruary 29, 2012: 166lbsJanuary 30, 2012: 174lbsDecember 30, 2011, 187 lbs26 lbs lost!:: :: :: :: :: ::How am I losing that weight, you ask? Medifast!! If you use the coupon code, OFAMILY56, and sign up for Medifast Advantage, when you order $250+, you’ll receive 56 free Medifast Meals and free shipping! (More details at the bottom of this post.)Disclosure: I receive free product in order to evaluate and comment on my experiences on the Medifast Nursing Mothers Program. I will only ever tell you how I actually feel about this experience and the Medifast products. Pinky swearsies. I am supposed to tell you that the Medifast Program is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease or illness and that any medical improvements noted while on the program are related to weight loss in general, and not to Medifast products or programs. K, you got that? Good. There will be a quiz later.